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Occasionally, I really hate this PhD thing. I've spent a lot of time this last week doing the 'thinking thing', as we call it. Which means it doesn't seem like I've gotten much done, but I've gone through and discarded (or kept) a bunch of questions/theories/ideas/stray thoughts regarding my work. Which is what my supervisor told me to do.

Unfortunately, all of those things rather contradict each other or don't at all mesh into a cohesive research project, so now I'm just really annoyed and worried and, mostly, annoyed. This made so much more sense a year ago. And I know that's normal, because everyone who has donea 2nd year of their PhD tells me they had no idea what they were doing until they got to 3rd year. But it makes me no less annoyed that I can't seem to get any ducks in a row. I'm not entirely sure they are even all ducks. They are certainly not all in the same pond. Or, possibly, even the same county.

And it's - FINALLY - raining. I have never been so happy about rain!

On the upshot, Hobbit starts at Phoenix next week, so it's 6.50 for a 3D film (though not 48fps). I shall go alone and not give a care.

Also, in other news, I am desperately hoping the flat I want for July is actually available (waiting to hear back). I've decided that once I turn 30 I really need to be living on my own, as I have never actually lived on my own before, except on rare occasions my parents were away and I was housesitting for them, which doesn't count in my book. I want my own place. It's going to cost a bloody fortune, but I've come to terms with that. I'm not travelling in November like I thought I would, so that's a month's rent available right here! Still, fingers crossed and all that. I need out of this house. It's frakking cold for one and Arvind is going deaf, so I repeat everything I say three times and can hear the telly from any room in the house. Having dealt with this with my parents, I'm really over it. Too bad, since this house is - I MEASURED - the closest a person can live to the main U of L campus. Guess I'll be walking more come July. By which time I will either be incapable of walking or in the best shape of my life. 50/50 chance either way.

I would really like to spend a few days on a beach. And I have never wanted to spend a few days on a beach. You don't realise how soul crushing being cold ALL THE TIME is. The house hasn't been above 15 in 17 days.
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Mostly, I'm too tired to update about academic assignments, a boat load of obligations, and wanting to sleep all the time, so...

This is me, not updating.

Yeah, I never do so well at those sorts of things.
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Apparently, "God" has decided to punish me for ten years of failing to get involved with anything, hidding in corners, and all around not volunteering for things. I deserve it, I realise, but that knowledge doesn't exactly help.

The next 12 months are going to kill me. And after that, I get to write a PhD! I am already looking forward to September 2014 like you wouldn't believe. But then I feel guilty for that feeling.

It's a no win scenario, as usual.

I am calmer, in a way that only comes when I know exactly how much of a shit-load of work I need to do. I get anxious when I know I have things to do and don't know/understand what they are. This time around, I have all these nice lists and job-descriptions that other people keep sending me. I even have a gantt chart! I love gantt charts! I will devote an entire wall in the new house to all the lists! With post-its and highlighters and coloured pens galore!

In case anyone would like to be bored by the details, I'm getting a sick amount of masochistic pleasure out of saying the following.

My Roles and Responsibilities at University are:

1) Social Media Moderator for the MS PhD department

2) On-campus co-student rep (and there's a LOOOONG list that goes under that one too)

3) University Student PhD Blogger

4) International Buddy Mentor

5) Museum Studio co-organiser

6) (probably) Project co-manager for PhD conference and maybe co-marketer/SM coordinator/website designer (2013) (another LOOOOOOONG list under this one too)

7) MS PhD Freshers Week co-organiser (to be fair, there's about half a dozen of us, but still)

8) Help out with: exhibitions within department, occasional assistant to lecturers, student marking, random IT help, seminar series x2, and any and all other duties I get volunteered for

I just want to go to bed when I look at it. But then, the next moment, I get all excited and just want to do ALL THE THINGS. Masochist.

In other, completely unrelated news, M has (slightly) redeemed herself by announcing that she and D have booked an anniversary cruise in Europe in August, at such a time as they will be arriving in London the day after I return from America, will be paying for a hotel room, and letting me show them around ANY PART OF LONDON I WANT. And then next summer, they are doing it again. Except that time, I said I'd meet them on the Continent, because they won't want to see London again, and visiting the Baltic would be great, especially after France/Spain (ie. I will hit 3 countries next year too [this might become a thing]). I told her she had to break it to her sister in such a way that said sister didn't throw a fit. And, lastly, that M has no more ability to comment on me going ot America in August. Though the irony of my parents flying to Europe at the same time I fly to Canada is lost on no one. It is the type of irony I get a satisfying pleasure from, however.

More importantly = CALGARY! PLANE! DENVER! MY life is now awesome again! [Thank the gods, there were about ten days in there I thought it had gone to hell forever.]

In still other news, Academic Research Week has now officially become Social Research Week. Gone to Liverpool. Be back online Sunday...perhaps. I may just spend the day in bed instead.

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Somehow, it's all gone a bit wrong. An announcement was made to the PhDs today by email that the APG exams will no longer be held in June, but in September. This annoys me for a lot of reasons, not the least is which that I will be ready in June to do it. Now I get to spend the summer...reading? Certainly won't be able to get started on a methodology that hasn't been approved by the board yet! So I can read and I people and twiddle my thumbs a lot.

Oh, and go hiking. A lot.

Like a lot.

And join the gym, but I was going to do those things anyways. I can multitask, but apparently my department thinks otherwise. The kicker part is that no one told the lecturers, so they all still think it's June.

Blog meeting on Tuesday! Will have all my volunteer jobs organised by the beginning of March (except that week of filling in for Catarina).

Walked 3.3km in 35 minutes today. Am quite certain I could have done 5km at the same pace. Now I just have to times that by 6 in the next 12 months. I've decided to do a hiking trip in September; Horseshoe in the Lake District, and then 4 days along the Wall. Nice 7 day trip, though the timing will now depend on the exam schedule! Before that, there is the Peak District. And before that there is the countryside 3km east of here. Will slowly build up to 10km in the city and then start going up into the hills on higher ground. Will definitely be ready for a week in September and my first real experience walking with a pack. Though, I might end up going in August. Least the weather will be cool that far north, though the tourists will be many.

I hate when plans get messed up.
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OMG! I loved it ALL! From Alexis to Martha to Beckett to Castle being an ass about an old girlfriend to Gates being bitchy. I expected about five seconds more at the end, though. It cut a little too quickly. Very nice homage to James Bond's 50th anniversary, I think. Can't wait for the next episode!

I am loving this show and all it's quirks. The phone thing never gets old, or the books, or anything and everything.

In other news, my first Graze box came this morning; well, last night actually, but the mail room was closed by then. Yummy treats to try! I've already had the dried strawberries, blueberries, currents, cranberries and sponge pieces. Tomorrow I think I'll try the one with chocolate [I already had a chocolate bar of yummy whipped chocolate and nuts today]. I wish it existed in Canada. Maybe there's a franchise there?

I have so much reading to do tomorrow, and the only part I'm looking forward to it's not for my paper! Haven't been to a [Tea in the Attic] since before xmas, and this is the new format. Hope it works, as I am the one that has to worry about it if it doesn't! I need some fun after the marathon of updating the conference website today. It took me an exhausting 3 hours to finish. Still, I hope there won't be too many changes to be made.

Jacket potato filled with tuna mayo for dinner. I am on day 5 of my road to happiness posts. Today I am thankful for tuna, the library stacks and dried fruit.
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I think my userpic says it all.

Seriously?. Why do I bother sometimes?

On another note, the endless series of meetings/teaching/emails/and shit is getting done. The research is sort of not.

5 sleeps!
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Reasons that I want it to be April 5th:

-I'd be halfway finished my final paper, instead of just starting the second one
-it would almost be Easter = chocolate!
-the weather would be much better than HAIL
-I'd get to see Grav in a week
-I would be a week away from having my books on hand again (not to mention DVDs and a flatscreen to watch them on)
-there would be good tv to watch
-I'd be in much better shape and working out wouldn't hurt anymore
-2.5 months only left of being a phd student (rather than a candidate)
-all the blasted training I have to do over the winter would be over
-I would hopefully have more employment lined up then I do now (which is a grand total of 2 days this month)
-the weather would be better...wait, I said that does bare repeating though.

I'm sure I could come up with more, but I have 30 pages left of this book to get through before lunch.
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[October 11, 2010]

Dear Self,

You're in the middle of writing your PhD proposal. Good for you. I commend you on grabbing life by the horns. I know the next few weeks are going to be really very stressful, but that's okay. You'll get through it.

But in twelve months from today you are going to have a meeting with your supervisor. It's going to be awesome, I want to make sure you understand that. But he's going to tell you that you have to research and write him a 4000 word paper in 3 weeks. You are going to spend the next hour having a panic attack, because you will have forgotten that you spend 7 years doing exactly that.

On that note, I am sending this to you for your sanity's sake. DON'T PANIC. It will be okay. You wrote 4000 word essays every month in university. It will be alright.

Your older self

::sends through time wormhole::

...nope, that didn't work.
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I ran into the Head of Department today, back from conference. I am SO SCREWED. I am going to go to bed tonight and have nightmares about failing my PhD and all the people who are going to be horribly disappointed in me. And that's not even COUNTING my family members.

RSMuseumStudies Richard Sandell
Great to have u back Amy RT @akhetherington Week 1 of the adventure that is a PhD is going well, I think. Suppose time will tell!

There are downsides to funding, apparently.

In much better news, I have a complete (matching!) bedroom set now and it's lovely. I have never been a purple person, but since the carpet and chair provided are purple, there didn't seem to be a choice. But I found a great duvet that's very modern with only a little purple on it and matchy matchy everything else. Even a tea mug! And stupidly cheap.

I also might have shopped at Primark yesterday, which I swore I would never do. How low we fall. Though bras for £2.90 is seriously impossible to pass up. They're comfy too!

Construction. Construction. Construction. Construction. Construction.
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Seriously good weekend ahead. So needed. Will inform on Sunday.

Must find time for research. And please, self, remember the conference call with your supervisor on Monday. Forgetting will not end well.

I have my address for the year! If you comment here, I will send it to you. It will not be valid until October though, so no mail until then!

Today's offering: (won't let me embed)

Hauntingly beautiful song that I can't stop listening to!
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Visa application: *headdesk*

It's almost not worth this much trouble or money just to do a PhD.

I said almost.
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1. Have been accepted to the University of Leicester.

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Just caught on the telly a whole hour long interview with Martin Sheen.  There were a great many highlights, but the top of the list was when he stood up to the crowd of hundreds watching and said [paraphrased] 'Obama can be a fantastic president, if you let him be!'.  Oh, Bartlet, I love you.  I also really miss The West Wing now.

In other news....3 days until NaNo.  I'm not panicking, really.  It's all going to be just fine.

I'm panicking about the phd funding application instead.

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Don't get me wrong, I never thought this would be easy, but the people I was worried wouldn't email me back are the only ones who *have*.  At least the transcripts are ordered and should arrive in plenty of time (KNOCKS ON WOOD).  Next week I am taking a day to write the bloody draft proposal so I have something to email to the UoL prof if she ever responds to me.  I am sure I can write the thing myself, but I'd like a little feedback, ya know?

November 10th deadline fast approaching.....


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