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I just like the icon. My keyboard, on the other hand, hates LJ. It only works when I type slowly. I hate typing slowly.

I am having one of those weeks that every PhD student has. The 'I don't want to do this anymore' week. Of course, it means nothing, because stopping isn't actually an option. The feeling is a bit pointless, but it's there nonetheless. I wish my supervisor would be honest enough with me to tell me everything he wants me to do up front, instead of waiting until I hand an assignment in, plan my next month's schedule and then tell me he wants me to write another report. He obviously knows he's going to ask for it, so tell me NOW please, so I can plan my time accordingly. Like now, when I begin my field research tomorrow for a month, ending in a report and yesterday, when he asked me to write a report before I start my field reserch. I've had the dates at the museum for two months now!

So I am goin to do the research anyways, because I can't cancel at the museum and try to find the time between all of that to research and write another report. So, right now, I don't want to be doing this PhD anymore, because I am tired, frustrated, stressed and now sick, thanks to a landlord who doesn't make an effort to keep his germs to himself. I tried hard but apparently not hard enough to wash my hands every five minutes. I have so much to do, I really don't have time to be sick! So I'll just have to get on with things anyway and be miserable while doing so.

I want a holiday, but then I'd be even more behind.
windemere: (dreamcatcher)
Well, how about 'Summer has Spluttered'? No? Doesn't have the same ring? Well, fine, but it's true anyways.

Today it is sunny. Over twenty degrees. It is the first true, honest day of SUMMER that we have had since May 28th. Since it's July 22nd, I want all of you to think about that for a moment.

But, since it is nice outside, I can move on to other things.

Back into research and paper writing mode, which I dislike. I was so happy in May when I thought that that was it until the thesis! Ha! Should know Ross better by now. This paper doesn't have to be long, but it is the least interesting topic ever (research methods in humanities). Not finding much in the way of sources either, and even less for examples. Not fun! Will have to plow on starting tomorrow. And also get back to my ethics forms. At least I managed to email the people I was supposed to email last week. Even heard back from one of them. Things are progressing.

Writing on the fic front is not going well. I hit 5500, and I know I will get to 10k before the end of the month. Unfortunately, I still have 7 chapters left to write, so the number of words doesn't matter. The fact that it is almost physically painful to write is what matters. I only write fic when my characters are talking to me. Right now, they aren't even whispering, so writing conversation is just a lesson in agony. And it ends up sounding horrible. This fic will suck. Which annoys me, because I try to put my all into my work. But this year, I don't have time. Last fic for quite a while I think! How depressing.

Also, will be going to London August 2nd. Yes, that's right, I'm braving the Olympics. I have decided not to care if a)my train is delayed, b)the Tube isn't running or c)it rains. Just going to go, soak in the madness and enjoy.
windemere: (geeking out)
I promised myself I wouldn't start writing the fic until I finished the paper. And the abstract. And the annual report. And returned from N. Ireland. But it's 8:30pm and I'm pretty damn bored of everything else. But I'm trying to be good. Work before fic. If I start writing now, the work is doomed to never getting done. And it's due in a week. And it's only a third started. But it's a good third!

At least I wrote the plot bunny down in detail so I wouldn't forget it. I have that much. It should wait until after May 19th. Or, rather more along the lines of a real date, June 19th. And then I have two months to spew out 25k. In amongst all those other things I need to be doing.

Now I really want to go hiking. That would rather involve less rain than England is currently getting. I do hope spring leads to a nice summer so that I can enjoy the Peak!
windemere: (inspire)
Uh, so this current paper is sort of becoming a 'how many of my lecturers can I quote in one academic piece' type of thing. So far, I have everyone except the Director, my former supervisor and my former second supervisor. And that's only because I can't find anything they've written that might be of use!

I hope Ross thinks it's funny when I turn it in.
windemere: (love tea)
Finds friends in the most unexpected places/people. How lovely!

Tonight is Cheese and Tea night. Yes, you read that right. No wine for us, and tea is so much better anyways. I am bringing mature cheddar from Australia and Russian Caravan tea. Awesome combo! Just have to get through 2 hours with Ross on how sucky my last paper was first. And I am in no mood to justify today. Feeling very mentally exhausted, and physically, haven't walked for days, missing the sun, anxious for no reason, etc, etc, etc.

Three weeks until there is a change. At least the conference should keep me busy. If this paper on exhibition design doesn't kill me first. On the upshot, the books I am putting on hold, because the MAs stole them all, are being returned! Thankfully, their need for them does not extend past next week I don't think, so I should get them all back by month's end.
windemere: (books)
That paper is done! [It's totally not done. There is definitely something I forgot/will have to correct/fix/rewrite.] I sent it to M to edit, to which she replied with a long rambling email that had something to do with a microwave, the desolution of my parents' marriage, and my aunt's flight schedule. To be honest, I didn't really read it very closely. There's really no point these days, as she will regale me with it all the next time we Skype. I only want to hear a story once. At least stories that are completely unentertaining.

I seem to have become the person people ask about for advice on doing an MS PhD at Leicester. How do these things happen? Two people in two days! [Both Canadians.]

I am watching Being Human again. I have no clue what is going on, having missed a season and a half, but the vampire is sort of cute, the accents are nice, and it's British. Also, it's entertaining, even if I don't understand most of the current backstory or who the hell the villain is.

I am taking tomorrow off. By which I mean, I have laundry and cleaning to catch up on, a whole host of movies lined up to watch (and a bit of telly), an Irish trip to plan and, you know, relaxing to do. Maybe I'll walk too, as I haven't all weekend due to weather/paper writing. Might try to do more than 5km too.

Apparently I agreed to be up at 6:30am on Wednesday before I realised that was what I agreed to. That is going to be a very long day (though not as long as I thought at 2pm this afternoon, thankfully). I am hopeful there is good research to be had and that someone else comes with, because the MAs are going to be so busy with things they don't even get a tea break (though they do get lunch). Also, I will have to spend the day avoiding my former supervisor as well as my current supervisor. God, why do I do these things to myself?

I am watching yet another BBC documentary. God, I love BBC documentaries. Doesn't even matter what they're on! Though this one is all about the rotation of the Earth and the impact that has had on climate, civilization and nature. I know most of it already, but the scenery shots are nice. And they went to the Bay of Fundy. Of course, the are ending on Britain and how much the rotation screws the weather up there. Which is sort of the last twenty-four hours summed up in an hour long documentary. The best part is the fact that it's new, so it's all about the horrific weather we've had here of late! Damn windstorms are really starting to bug me.

Anyways, that' Oh, I got one last one: Bella Italia, which is an international chain btw, is advertising the Breaking Dawn Part I DVD which comes out next week here. I am greatly amused, can I just say? Who knew that a little restaurant in Port Angeles, Washington would spawn an international marketing campaign for a movie about vampires? Oh, it's the little things in life that keep me going. [I entered the contest they are running too, but that's because it's for a weekend shopping trip to London, with a nice hotel and train tickets included, and I could use one of those.]
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Well, apparently I got my two weeks along the road to happiness and that was all. March 1st was pretty good and yesterday was alright, if a bit emotional.

Today, I was woken at 3:30am by the flatmate. Again at 7am (have I mentioned she doesn't sleep at night and also never goes to class - by her own admission?) and then the scaffolding crew showed up at 7:30 on a Saturday to finish the building platforms. And they are louder then they have ever been in five months. They are also legally not supposed to be here before 9am, as they signed a contract with the university to limit their working hours to 9-5pm. But since they are already here (and tomorrow is Sunday) and they will be finished by the end of today, calling in a complaint will do no good whatsoever.

Need to get a 1000 words of the paper done today, then hopefully I can finish it in the (quiet) of tomorrow. At least I have Afternoon Tea to look forward to today in Leicester's proper Tea Rooms!
windemere: (rant worthy)
Right, well, I slightly recind my love of the new Fb timeline. I am hoping it's a starting glitch, but every single time I click or change anything, it refreshes itself and returns to the top of the page. Which is ANNOYING AS HELL.

In other news, there was apple, raisin and cinnamon crepes today with a large cinnamon mocha and I only missed the maple syrup a littlebit.

Spent 20 minutes in circles on the tax automated system that HMRC have and discovered there is actually NO WAY to get a real person on the line, no matter what you press.  However, I think the 'nice English lady' answered the questions I had anyways, so there's.  Which is good, because their website, though extensive, failed to give me a straight answer about ANYTHING.  I don't like ambiguous.  It bugs me.

Lastly, I have a stack of 12 papers (blessedly the longest is 2400 words) on my desk that need to be marked by Friday.  Considering my day tomorrow (and the fact that today is almost over and not a single one has been looked at), I guess I know what I'm going Thurs/Fri.  On the upshot, 12 essays is lots of money!  And I still have my work from Monday to be paid to me next week.  And there are essays in March too for marking.  In still other news, I may get back to paper writing on, oh, Saturday? Which will be a week from when I started writing it.  Unless I get something done in the next few hours.  Maybe to 2000?  My outline hasn't even been approved yet though, so I don't want to get too far into it.  Decisions, decisions.  And Castle.  And tea.  I spent faaaar too much on groceries today, but bought a whole wack of healthy stuff again (third week running now) and all the stuff I need (minus, unfortunately, black pudding) for a fry-up!  And icing for the cupcakes I am making for the bake sale next week.

Which I should write in my day planner before I forget. 

And Morrisons now sells proper food dye for icing.  The gel kind!

So: nice food colouring, answered questions, and the 1950s, which inspired my outfit today!
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Step Number One:

Volunteer for lots of things you have no time for.

Step Number Two:

Make yourself known. Other people will like you and recommend you for other things. Some of them might even pay money.

Step Number Three:

Write lots.

Step Number Four:

Take a holiday. You've worked hard and you need a break. Also, have a hockey player for a cousin.

And then you will get away with things like:

'I need to move my essay deadline. I was think March 5th.'

'How about the 9th? That works better for me.'


Road to Happiness addendum:
1. I am grateful for cranberry juice.
2. I am grateful for the nice weather we are having.
3. I am grateful that it took four months for me to run smack into my former supervisor. And I'm even more grateful that he has no idea who I am.
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Has finally, blessedly, finished the paper. The last time I spent two months straight working on an academic project, it was 2009 and it was a dissertation on my favourite subject. I've never spent that long on a project on a topic I found completely uninspiring. But it is done now, and will me handed in Monday. And now I can move on to kids in museums.

It's hard to believe there's only one day left in 2011. It's harder to believe that the millennium started 11 years ago. So many things have happened in the last decade, not just personally, but globally. A hundred years ago the world barely changed in ten years; now it's almost every month. It was the final conclusion to my paper and a good note to end on this year.

I don't quite know what to do with myself tomorrow. I've had a nice (longer than it should have been) holiday and I'm actually ready to start work again, but somehow spending December 31st doing so seems a shame. I do have to grocery shop and do chore-y stuff, but that won't take the whole day. I've run out of movies I desire to watch on the computer or in the theatre. I'm bored with fic. I haven't quite come up with the plot idea for my next story, so unless that occurs to me tonight/tomorrow, I won't be working on that for a bit (which is alright, I need the break). I feel like I should go do something, but no one is around, the weather isn't supposed to be great (ie long walk weather) and I have very little desire to spend money (so the centre and travel are out).

Huh, I may actually be bored.
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Finally. I did manage to write 2000 words today that aren't awful -


- but it was meant to be 3000. I sort of ran out of steam on constructivist theory, which, can you blame me? I can make it up later, or simply add something else to that section. There is research I did for this paper that so far isn't planned to be part of it. I might add it in later. Fixing the damn thing will be December 26-January 1st problem.

Preliminary plan to make a weekend trip down to Gillingham (Kent) in January to spend a few days at a nice B&B, visit a dear friend of my parents, and tour two museums that have been on my To Visit list for a while. Obviously, January is not ideal, but I'll take what I can get. It is, however, cheaper. Then it will be Germany and hockey! [And more museums].

So, the latest one was 13,000 and change. There was also the 6,000 one on the weekend. Everytime I think I know my daily word limit, Twilight surprises me. I think I'm starting to understand why the books are so long. SM probably couldn't stop. For which I can sympathise. Unfortunately, unlike SM, I'm not making money off of this and so would prefer it fill up less of my time. The world has definitely tilted if I write more than I read. It's not right.

The good weekend approacheth, but I have to get through the next 3 days first. Bugger that.

Oh, the Aunt deigned to email again, with a subject line instead of a body message, followed by a one line dig about Kindle. It's heartless, but after I get my Christmas presents from her, I'm not talking to her until Easter. Because I am just that much of a hypocrit. Thank you very much.
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I...slightly, rescind. I was woken at 7:15 this morning to fireworks going off right behind my apartment complex. Followed by some of the loudest construction banging thus far.

So now I'm in a bad mood, and that's never good for writing. I have looked at my essay plan, made a rough estimate of word counts and decided my more realistic goal for the day, considering how I feel and that I have a dinner party tonight, is going to be 1300. Which is less than a NaNo day. So long as I do the main arguments tomorrow (2500) I have Sunday to write the proposal and edit. And we all know how long it doesn't take me to edit.

Also, Ross said it wasn't due until 5pm on Monday. Obviously I will send it before that, but I think 1pm is a good deadline. Gives me the morning for...issues.
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I'm really not sure I got out of this movie what I was supposed to. For one, Chantel and I just kept laughing at all the funny quotes. The best of which was:

'Blogging is not writing. It's graffiti with punctuation.' Which clearly tells me that that sort of person doesn't read the average blog, because the punctuation is horrific more ofthen not.

Still, I came home and washed my hands, but I think that was more in the realm of a guilt trip than anything. I still enjoyed the movie more than I thought I would, but was disappointed in how much the trailers sucked. Am hoping for better ones when Chantel and I see Tintin in a couple of weeks.

It's Diwali tonight, and I live in the UK capital of Diwali celebrations, so there are about ten different fireworks displays going off around my building and since I live in the ass corner of it on the ground floor, I can't see anything. And it's a bit too cold for standing outside viewing. But they sound cool!

I wrote 400 words this morning. I love every single one of them, but I fear my tongue in cheek attitude may not work for an academic paper. Then again, some of the articles I've read lately...Tomorrow my goal is 2000.

Hear that LJ verse? TWO THOUSAND words. Call me on it, please.


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